I'm sorry for the expletive but that's exactly how I feel right now. I usually get over school-related problems and problems with my teachers in a jiffy but this one's different. I feel really bitter. I feel stepped upon. I feel that my friend who's only major point over me is having a laptop and is on his way through the Magis dissertation is unfairly taking the credit for everything WE have done and is of MY idea. All because of a vague system that can easily leave out other people.
Not even my parents or an affirmation of my abilities by a friend helped uplift my mood. Even seeing my tarp stating my international forum victory isn't enough. It feels so bitter. I mean, I NEVER THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT GIVING MY TIME AND EFFORT FOR THE CONVERSION OF THIS SH*TTY CLUB INTO A RESPECTED AND WELL-ROUNDED ONE. FROM BEING AN ALL-GEEK PACK I WAS ABLE TO GET HONOR'S CLASS PEOPLE. FROM AN UNKNOWN CRAP CLUB I MADE IT INTO SOMETHING THAT WAS AS SUPERIOR AS OTHER CLUBS. DOUBT ME? ASK PEOPLE AROUND THE SCHOOL. but why, oh, why am I not recognized? i know, jesuit education tells of giving without counting the cost and fighting without heeding the wounds. But hey, ISN'T IT THAT WHAT THEY'RE DOING, THEIR DEPRIVATION OF AWARDS INTENDED FOR ME A BIG QUESTION MARK OVER THE CULTURE OF ANTI-COMPETITIVENESS INSPIRED BY LOYOLA HIMSELF? I know, NO AMOUNT OF LOUSY SH*T CERTIFICATE, NO GLISTENING TROPHY, CAN EVER EQUATE MY SACRIFICES. but, what are sacrifices for when you don't have anything in exchange for it? sacrificing your life to save someone saves someone. sacrificing your time for your studies makes you excel in your studies. Jesus, in sacrificing his life, saved us and is still saving us. My point? sacrificing has its benefits. otherwise, it'll be stupidity. What I did for that UNGRATEFUL CLUB AND ITS MODERATOR isn't sacrifice then. You know what it was? STUPIDITY.
Thanks to this sh*t club, i had just made my first reklamador-ish blog in months. thanks to this, they just made me realize that i may be a mensan with est IQ of 162 but in truth I'M A STUPID PERSON.
Bottomline is, for everyone that reads this right now, I won't tell you that your efforts can't be equated to medals or any other form of recognition.
Remember: Sacrifices that bear nothing in return is stark STUPIDITY.
I SINCERELY HOPE THAT YOU GUYS END UP BEING THE FAVORED ONES LIKE MY FRIEND AND NOT TO BE THE DUMBASS WHO WORKED HIS ASS FOR NOTHING.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Magis Awards=Sh*T
Posted by Reklamador AD3 at 2:48 AM
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valid point ryt der....
I really like ths blog. it shows genuine emotion and reasonable arguments. it's something that relates to us in a way or so. we've all been subjects of a anti-egalitarian society.
ya. der are rily lots of blogs in rekla that may at first seem like rants but are actually emotions in text that had we had once experienced in a way at some points of our life...
viva la rekla!!!!
ei man, i didnt realize ur also human, eh.
point 1: your ill-feelings are valid.
point 2: but ur missing the point man! sacrifices are not means but ends in themselves. they're supposed to be embraced not for any reason other reason than themselves. if u get recognized by it then well and good, if not then it doesn't make the sacrifice any less than what it is.
point 3: great people that walked before us were never recognized in their lifetime. the scale of the world is too small to measure u up. don't let an award get the better of u. u are bigger than that. (easy for me to say, haha)
hey guys i'm really sorry for the expletives but since reklamadors really have a rule against blog editing, i can't take things back. This is as real as a blog can get.
thanks for the concern. I'm ok right now.
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